Before I go into detail, I'd like to tell you what's behind this...

Because I've been there and this space is the path I walked that took me from feeling insecure and disconnected from my body, to being truly embodied and connecting with my power, wisdom and sensuality.
And that's why I want to share it with you.

Hi!

 I'm Lau,

At first I wasn’t aware how disconnected and unfamiliar I was with my body’s language.

I used to have a lot of anxiety, an eating disorders and I was codependent in my relationship. I had skin and digestive issues that doctors said were triggered by stress.

But that was the only knowledge I had.

I found yoga, meditation. I started to feel a difference in my anxiety. My anxiety never resolved with therapy but seeing that it was linked to how I was moving my body and breathing was a first amazing finding.

Then I realized by meditating that I had a lot of emotional wounds - then allowing myself to cry when I felt it and connecting to my pain was another layer. I thought I was doing everything I needed for my healing.

I found sex siren - a practice to embody and express your sensuality and question your sexuality. I discovered I was powerful. I felt amazing I stopped feeling codependent in my relationship cause I wasn’t depending on him for validation anymore. I learn to validate myself and enjoy my body.

I was trying ‘everything’. Psychedelics, breathwork, yoga, whatever that would give me ‘more awareness’. I started to heal and receive more violence in my relationship. I lived alone and I started to feel paranoia.

I was waking up in the middle of the night, I felt a weird energy all the time. I thought it was only my paranoia and that I was feeling fear all the time.

Also I was told by several ‘psychics’ that my apartment was full of entities and disembodied - I got scared, I just didn’t want to be open to those things.

Nothing of my previous tools and practices helped with paranoia , not even any kind of therapy so far. I was told I was playing victim or that I should take meds when in every therapy they couldn’t help me to find answers.

I started to do tantra practices and did a womb activation that ended up in a infection that almost required surgery.

I thought there was something wrong with me , until I started to learn about trauma and nervous system, about my needs and desires, and how what I was experiencing it was just a symptom and I could change it through working with my body.

I took a somatic therapy session, I learned to FEEL what my body was asking and giving to myself the sensation of safety I was craving. I felt a change immediately. I saw that’s what I needed.

I learn about how my addiction to sugar caused me more stress - I did several detox to break my addiction and reset my body, and I also ended up healing my relationship with food.

I learned about chronic pain and i started to focus on process my emotions, create a safe space within myself and learned how movement and training could hep.

I learned about daily habits, like sunbathing that would help my body to self regulate.

I asked for help with somatic practitioners to process the specific traumatic experiences that triggered paralysis and paranoia in me.

I learned to use breathwork as a way to release, process and increase my nervous system resilience for stress.

i learned what felt like safety and what felt unsafe in my relationships, what were my wounds and how to ask for what I wanted, set boundaries without setting walls and how to identify my triggers, my needs, my desires and act according to what I needed in every moment.

I had lost my ‘faith’ and I thought my connection to universe and spirituality I thought, but with breathwork and dancing I started to be more in touch with ‘divine messages’ that were coming to me.

And the safer I felt in my body, the easier it got to listen to my intuition.

I realized I was being heard by the universe when I could notice some synchronicites. I started to recover my faith and desire to connect to the ‘spiritual’ part of me. I learned to read the akashic records for myself and that’s when I felt the presence and energy for my guides all around me.

That was the baseline - It’s been an ongoing journey.

I realized the more I go into my body, the deeper I can shred the layers and conditioning inside me.

I also learned that trauma goes beyond myself and my body, it’s caused by systemic oppression and the way of how history has been made. I realized the conditioning is everywhere.

The more aware I am, the deeper I know myself, the more freedom I experience ‘cause now I know what’s my truth, what’s my conditioning, what are my real and true desires on a soul level, how to identify a limiting belief and most importantly, how I can change and transform EVERYTHING inside of me to experience this life in freedom to be who I wanna be, love and feel loved the way it make sense to me, and how to change my whole identity to find alignment, power, pleasure in this life for me.

and that’s what I wanna share with you in this space - the whole journey so you can find your own truth and freedom in your terms